cardinal / monarch

my mother, whom it may not concern

my mother whom i
love
like the way the fly loves the venus
trap
the way it eats, consumes
encases to devour, i am
chlorophyll food
to your burgundy hue maw /

i am the mantis in the gilded
cage
captured by you, entombed
by you, i pinch and bite
you take, break, away
what little i have left
of my poorly made skin
exoskeleton broken /

nothing gets past you, everything through
to me
do you watch the way i weave
orb spider summer, web design
to monument a tapestry of all
the wild things i can 
name to you:
i see your hatred and turn it into /

gospel & music, hymns
everything sings, so too must i
the wind, the trees, the nature
of being hums
your cruelty, i turn to love
you, but you
eat me, devour me,
and i will not let you /

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A/N: I am homeless as of today. Moved out of my mom’s place and ran for it. Day one and I’m like upset and free and miserable and free at once. I’m afraid of being away from her I guess. Her reaction to it all really left a bad taste in my mouth (heh). Cardinals have always been important to me, and they eat monarchs and get sick from them. So the theme of eating of this poem is very important to me. If anyone has any further questions, I’d recommend looking into emotional incest/enmeshment. It is a common theme in my writing.